Thursday Can't Come Soon Enough

So this morning Zackary and I woke up early and headed over to his Tee Ball game.  He did awesome!  He got to keep the game ball!  His team is definitely improving and I am just so proud of him.  He was so pleased with his performance today!  What a cute little love bug!  Then we headed over to my parents house for lunch and so that he could stay the night with them.  My sister and Adam came over as well.  Then we got some not so happy news.  My mom told us that her doctor thinks that her breast cancer has come back...fifteen years later.  They found some calcium deposits in her mammogram and did a little biopsy.  We get the results Thursday.  That day they will also draw some blood for the genetic testing to find out if she carries the mutated gene BRCA 1 or BRCA 2 or if she was the small percentage of the general population that gets it.  If she has the mutated gene my sister and I will have to be tested to see if we were passed the gene.  I think I am going to cry.  Fifteen years of being cancer free and there is a possibility of it being back?  My mom is just 50 years old!  Breast cancer twice by the time you are 50?  I can't believe it.  I don't want this for her, and I don't want this for us.  I wish Jason were here with me.  So Monday I am calling my doctor to get a referral for a mammogram.  Hopefully everything is clear, and hopefully my mom's tests come back negative.  There was so much more information, but honestly I am just so distraught over the possibility that it could be back that I can't even write any more tonight.  Pray for my family.  Pray for my mom.